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vasilfzr ([info]vasilfzr) wrote,
@ 2010-07-12 02:33:00

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Ellen Olenska made no answer, and did not...
Ellen Olenska made no answer, and did not moveAfter a moment he sat down beside her, and, taking her hand, softly unclasped it, so that the gloves and fan fell on the sofa between them

She started up, and freeing herself from him moved away to the other side of the hearth"Ah, don't make love to me! Too many people have done that," she said, frowning

Archer, changing colour, stood up also: it was the bitterest rebuke she could have given him"I have never made love to you," he said, "and I never shallBut you are the woman I would have married if it had been possible for either of us

"Possible for either of us?" She looked at him with unfeigned astonishment"And you say that—when it's you who've made it impossible?"

He stared at her, groping in a blackness through which a single arrow of light tore its blinding way

"I'VE made it impossible—?"

"You, you, YOU!" she cried, her lip trembling like a child's on the verge quilted chanel bags of tears"Isn't it you who made me give up divorcing—give it up because you showed me how selfish and wicked it was, how one must sacrifice one's self to preserve the dignity of marriage and to spare one's family the publicity, the scandal? And because my family was going to be your family—for May's sake and for yours—I did what you told me, what you proved to me that I ought to doAh," she broke out with a sudden laugh, "I've made no secret of having done it for you!"

She sank down on the sofa again, crouching among the festive ripples of her dress like a stricken masquerader; and the young man stood by the fireplace and continued to gaze at her without moving

"Good God," he groaned"When I thought—"

"You thought?"

"Ah, don't ask me what I thought!"

Still looking at her, he saw the same burning flush creep up her neck to her faceShe sat upright, facing him with a rigid dignity

"Well, then: there were things in that bolsas louis letter you asked me to read—"

"My husband's letter?"

"Yes

"I had nothing to fear from that letter: absolutely nothing! All I feared was to bring notoriety, scandal, on the family—on you and May

"Good God," he groaned again, bowing his face in his hands

The silence that followed lay on them with the weight of things final and irrevocableIt seemed to Archer to be crushing him down like his own grave-stone; in all the wide future he saw nothing that would ever lift that load from his heartHe did not move from his place, or raise his head from his hands; his hidden eyeballs went on staring into utter darkness

"At least I loved you—" he brought out

On the other side of the hearth, from the sofa-corner where he supposed that she still crouched, he heard a faint stifled crying like a child'sHe started up and came to her side

"Ellen! What madness! Why are you crying? Nothing's done that can't be undoneI'm still free, and gucci clearance you're going to be He had her in his arms, her face like a wet flower at his lips, and all their vain terrors shrivelling up like ghosts at sunriseThe one thing that astonished him now was that he should have stood for five minutes arguing with her across the width of the room, when just touching her made everything so simple

She gave him back all his kiss, but after a moment he felt her stiffening in his arms, and she put him aside and stood up

"Ah, my poor Newland—I suppose this had to beBut it doesn't in the least alter things," she said, looking down at him in her turn from the hearth

"It alters the whole of life for me

"No, no—it mustn't, it can'tYou're engaged to May Welland; and I'm married

He stood up too, flushed and resolute"Nonsense! It's too late for that sort of thingWe've no right to lie to other people or to ourselvesWe won't talk of your marriage; but do you see me marrying May after this?"

She stood louis vuitton taschen silent, resting her thin elbows on the mantelpiece, her profile reflected in the glass behind herOne of the locks of her chignon had become loosened and hung on her neck; she looked haggard and almost old

"I don't see you," she said at length, "putting that question to MayDo you?"

He gave a reckless shrug"It's too late to do anything else

"You say that because it's the easiest thing to say at this moment—not because it's trueIn reality it's too late to do anything but what we'd both decided on

"Ah, I don't understand you!"

She forced a pitiful smile that pinched her face instead of smoothing it"You don't understand because you haven't yet guessed how you've changed things for me: oh, from the first—long before I knew all you'd done

"All I'd done?"

"YesI was perfectly unconscious at first that people here were shy of me—that they thought I was a dreadful sort of personIt seems they had even refused to meet me at chanel classic bags dinner


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